Nepal - one year ago!

It was but a year ago I was just finishing up my "Servant Team" - 4 months in the beloved nation of Nepal. (a tiny country nestled between India and China, surrounded by the beautiful Himalyan mt.s)

I climed up to the top of the world and witnessed the beauty of God from the roof of the earth. I stood on rooftops in the Katmandu valley and read Revelation alloud, prophecying the soon return of King Jesus.

I wore out my shoes trekking, and lived with the poor, learning the ways of simplicty by entering into their needs....
I volunteered at a government run orphanage for abandoned children, spending time in one of the baby rooms. Mostly I just held little boys and girls, cradling them and praying scripture over them...

I had my heart wretched and broken a thousand times holding these precious little ones....

Each little face is permanently etched on my memory... and it was these experiences that God used to inspire a future commitment to adopt.

The Lord also used my time at the orphanage to reveal HIS heart to me on a deeper level as well. I found myself pondering Jesus, the express image of the Father. Jesus did not leave us as orphans, but came to us through the cross. He did everything to reconcile us into the Father's love and adopt us into Sonship. He transferred us out of the dominion of darkness and into His kingdom of light, redeeming us and forgiving us of our sins. In that way, I see myself in the orphan - I was once lost and apart from the Father and Christ has redeemed me so I can be adopted into His love.

I pray for the spirit of adoption and Sonship to be revealed in and through my heart more and more!

The Cross

I have been meditating on the cross. Isaiah 53 describes that He took not only the just penalty for my sins, but He also "born my griefs and carried my sorrows." Yes He took even the sins committed against me, all my pain. He was crushed, He was wounded, He bore stripes, that upon my entering into Him I may be healed. He has cast down and disarmed all principalities by the cross, and overcome death, sin, and satan. He went down into Hades and snatched the keys to my soul from the enemy forever! He fulfilled the covenant on my behalf, He gave His own life and shed His own blood to fulfill the covenant I broke. He broke down every dividing wall of hostility in His own flesh, to reconcile me unto God, to wash me and bring me into union with Him as His pure spotless Bride.

In His own frame, He bore all my sin, sorrows, and death. He chose it. The more I meditate on what He has done at the cross, the quicker I am to yield every barrier in my heart to His love, unto the cross, that I may be brought into wholehearted agreement with Him. I pray daily for the Holy Spirit to cause me to love Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength, forever....

He desires me, He pursued me unto death. He wants me and will stop at nothing that we may be unified. Truly, Jesus LOVES me. I believe and receive His love!!!!

He is a real person, the God-Man forever. A man I will meet face to face, gaze into His eyes, and with all the church, we will be united to Him forever as His beloved wife. We will dwell in the home He's prepared for us, the new Jerusalem, in His kingdom when He brings heaven to earth in the next age.... O hasten the day!

from my fav coffeeshop in KC....

Wow..... long time no update peeps! Sorry about that.....

This spring has been one of the most wonderful seasons of my life. In summary, I have loved KC and fallen deeper and deeper in love with Jesus, more than ever before.

After an extended fast/silence the Lord opened the eyes of my heart and I had an encounter with Jesus one night in February, that changed me forever. I saw Jesus, the Bridegroom. God told me that before that I had only known Him as Father - His caring nurturing love that grew me up and called me forth, but I had never known the love of Jesus, the Lover, Pursuer, and the one who is coming back for His bride. When I saw Him, we looked one another in the eyes, and then I realized I had never understood love. No human relation can compare to what I saw in His face and eyes, the burning fire. I saw who I was in His eyes, I was a gem in His hands, one who was always kept, one wholly His. I saw His jealousy over my life and that He always protected me even in darkness and trial. I knew His blood had truly washed me and there was no veil of shame between us - I looked Him straight in the eyes. No words seem enough, no words are able, but I was changed forever... and just that one glimpse of the man Im going to marry has set my heart forever to enter into this covenant, to which I am now betrothed. I dont just want a glimpse, I want to walk with him and be one with Him forever, in His holy city the new Jerusalem.

I also had a revelation that I will always be His. That was a process this spring and I cant articulate it, but I have utterly been ruined and utterly been marked. I now know deep within me, not just in my head, that I will always be His, never fall away, never be taken from Him, never go back. The same grace that purchased me, has kept and will keep me into the end. Its grace, its mercy, its His inititive to pursue me unto death, to have me even before I wanted Him. It was Him that saved me, it was Him that kept me, and all because He wants me, delights in me, and its written inside me now, and can never be taken.

I had a dream the past week where Jesus came to me and told me this again. I remember no face or form in the dream but I know His voice, from the indwelling Holy Spirit - and He said I'd always be His, my hearts been given and He'll never give it back it let it go. Its done. Im sealed.

The sr. retreat my class had from BCOM, I remember my friend Lydia giving me a word that the Lord had, "done a work in me that could never be undone." Similar to that was a a friend of mine had when praying for me - he's a blacksmith and he said he had a picture of a peice of pipe that had been through some much heat and pressure that I had been formed toward the Lord in such a fashion that i could never bend any other way, the pressure had strengthened and hardened me in heat to be utterly towards Him forever. I am finally at the place in my spirit where I KNOW this by revelation, not just in my head. Its true, I am sealed unto the day of the Lord! He keeps me until the end.

Aside from these inner wonders, life itself has been a joy and I've had a glorious time here.
I go to a tiny church inner city called the Prayer Dome - its pretty much all black, and I believe it is the place through which the Lord will fulfill His word to send revival to inner city, KC.
Every monday night I also attend ihop's inner city ministry called "Hope City" where we have a worship service with the poor and eat together. That has weekly been a highlight and Ive met so many wonderful people. Sunday afternoons I attend a tiny home-church like group from some of the key families at the PrayerDome. It's called "fellowship" and we share a meal, pray, and read in the word. Most of them are aged seasoned prophets and listening to how they hear the Lord, their dreams, and what they are learning has raised me up more in my giftings and as an intercessor.

Well this has been quite the long update so Ill peace out. thank you dear readers!